2006

Well, I had written a really nice post about my life when I was pregnant with Sarah while I was engaged, and getting married, and I was very satisfied with my creation. Then my computer went down when I went to publish it, and the draft reverted to a false start I had about a Google News article concerning a woman who was motivated by grief to lose 25 pounds. Naturally I verbally abused this woman in print for quite a while. But I don’t think I’ll go there again.

I’ve been having a lot of connectivity issues lately with both my home and work computers. Connectivity is of course something of a loaded term. I’m having lots of connectivity issues lately period. I think I am trying, to a certain extent, to connect with other people. I looked up volunteer experiences with gay and trans teenagers in my area, thinking there might be some organization that needed volunteers to provide home-cooked meals or motherly advice and hugs to kids whose parents had rejected them because of their identity. There was one group that said it needed telephone counselors for kids in crisis, but when I clicked on the link, they said they weren’t actually accepting applications right now. I was very disappointed, but then I realized that I hate talking on the phone for a long time, so I probably wouldn’t have been good at that role anyway.

Maybe I can set up a little booth, sort of similar to a lemonade stand, where I can offer free cookies, sandwiches, and motherly hugs to anyone who is having a rough day. I don’t care the reason why. I can also listen to people complain about their in-laws, since I never really had a mother-in-law or father-in-law to speak of, and I’ll make sympathetic noises. I’ll offer advice for educating special needs kids. But really sometimes it’s just about knowing someone is in your corner and doesn’t expect you to be perfect.