Both Max and I are trying to get out and do more things. The Parakeet Lady wants me to try to do some new activities and Max’s sponsor is also pushing him to get out more and do more things outside the house.
We talked about the fact that this is really hard. I feel stigmatized. I feel like I don’t bring anything to the table. I don’t have much to say and I’m afraid of being asked how many children I have, what people who have lost a child refer to as “The Question.”
Max brought up an issue that hadn’t occurred to me but it was a good point. He said that he’s afraid of experiencing more loss. New people and new relationships mean the potential for more losses.
It’s hard to bond to anything new right now. I have signed up for an Aquacize class so I can strengthen my wrist. Hopefully I can get myself out of the house and go. I also registered for a Make-a-Wish Banquet. Keep your fingers crossed.
The First Year Without Sarah 