Back when I first graduated from law school I worked for a DC law firm for a couple of years. It was not a positive experience. I had spent a summer working for the firm in another city and received an offer, and then I asked to come to DC to work. My request was… Continue reading Managing Partner
Tag: death
Stress Eating
There was a very triggering post this morning on my local moms discussion board about weight, overweight, and what to do to “control” an overweight daughter. It seems the mom in question visited her daughter at college and saw that she had gained a lot of weight. The mom was “repulsed” (her words). The daughter… Continue reading Stress Eating
Life Span
I realized this morning that we are right on the cusp of my first Mother’s Day since Sarah died. Part of me thinks it will be a sad day but part of me is Zen about it. We never participated in the Mother’s Day Brunch industrial complex due to our family’s eating habits and Sarah’s… Continue reading Life Span
Just in Case
Max and I are watching a new show, “Godfather of Harlem.” We like it a lot, and I especially like the song that plays at the beginning over the credits sequence, Just in Case by Swiss Beatz, Rick Ross, and DMX. The chorus makes me cry a bit sometimes. It goes: Open up my window… Continue reading Just in Case
Hearts
My dad has returned to NYC for now, but will be moving to the area to an independent living facility about 20 minutes from here sometime late this summer. I’m pleased that he will be close by and that he made this decision. But it’s hard not to feel guilty about the prospect of a… Continue reading Hearts
Legacies
I talk a lot about my family of origin, which is half of Sarah, but I’ve hardly touched on Max’s family background at all. Max’s parents were really a whole generation older than my parents. His dad Leonard was born in 1918, and Max’s grandfather died from the Spanish Flu before Max’s dad was born.… Continue reading Legacies
Trailhead
The park where I often walk Polly the Beagle (and where Sarah’s planned memorial bench will go) has a very large open area of playing fields and swing sets and a nice big path that takes you all the way around the park through pines and other trees. There’s also a more wooded area of… Continue reading Trailhead
Cookies and Cream
Starting from when she was very little Sarah was given injections of Botox to help with her condition every three to six months. It wasn’t a cosmetic procedure. Botox apparently works by freezing certain very localized muscle groups where it’s administered and then it somehow helps to “unfreeze” the muscle groups next to them. It’s… Continue reading Cookies and Cream
Live Children
The worst times for me seem to be when I lie down to fall asleep and when I wake up between sleep cycles in the middle of the night. I just start thinking about Sarah and I start crying. I’m not even really sure what I’m thinking about. I’m so afraid that Sarah is becoming… Continue reading Live Children
Bumpers
Buzzfeed helpfully offered a quiz this morning to help me figure out which psychological complex I have. The results were not exactly earthshaking. I have a Guilt Complex which includes “feelings of unworthiness” and a tendency to “put others needs before my own.” I need to develop self-compassion and prioritize my well-being, etc., etc. Okay,… Continue reading Bumpers
The First Year Without Sarah 