Yesterday I noticed that the flowers are already starting to bloom here. We had a very mild winter in DC. That makes all seasons that Sarah has been gone: summer, fall, winter, and spring. Although it has only been six months and ten days. But time is not always reliable for me right now. Lately… Continue reading Dedication
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Breaking Up
From the time Sarah was a toddler, she would get fixated on particular movies or television shows and then all of a sudden she would have enough and she never wanted to see them again. When she was really little, she loved the movie Babies, which is about four little ones from different parts of… Continue reading Breaking Up
Spring a doodle
Yesterday I was coming home from walking Polly the Beagle and as I was coming down our block I thought I saw Max in our front yard next to the street. He seemed to be wearing this green sweater I got him for Hanukkah that he likes a lot, and some grey sweatpants. (It’s been… Continue reading Spring a doodle
Spirit Week
I was going to start writing this morning about Rare Disease Day, which falls on February 28, and harangue you about its meaning and importance. Yes, close call for you guys. Instead, Facebook’s “Memories” feature dragged up a post of mine from 2016 that grabbed my attention and even got me laughing a little bit.… Continue reading Spirit Week
Losing a child
This morning while cruising through Facebook I saw one of those “harried mom” memes in which the mom said she must be doing okay because she hadn’t lost any of her children or pets today. I get that. Losing your kid in an airport, or mall, or parking lot is really horrible. I never exactly… Continue reading Losing a child
Legacies
We were never expecting Sarah would marry or have children (although she definitely had a way of surprising us) but now that she’s gone, our line ends here. There are multiple grandchildren and even great-grandchildren on both sides of our family so it’s not as if our families will stop existing. Max and I are… Continue reading Legacies
Self Care
This week I was at the dentist getting a dental crown replaced, and she discovered a small cavity underneath the crown when she took it off. “I can just remove that small cavity right now,” she said reassuringly. (Dr. Ramdath at The Smile Atelier is a terrific dentist if you are in need, by the… Continue reading Self Care
For the Present
Just when I thought it was safe to look at Google News again, Psychology Today zapped me with another one of its helpful articles from Mark Travers, Ph.D. This one is about how to handle my catastrophic thinking. Mark explains that catastrophizing is distorted thinking or a malfunctioning thought process. I’m certainly with you there,… Continue reading For the Present
Flirting With Disaster
I woke up screaming again this morning at around 3:30. I really feel bad for my husband at this point, as this is the third time in the last couple of weeks he has been awakened by my shrieking “You f&%ing a$$h#le” or words to that effect. I hope he’s not getting a complex. I… Continue reading Flirting With Disaster
Trips
One week from today will be March 1. February has been a hard month in so many ways and I do want it to pass away. And in March, Max and I will take a trip to the UK. We haven’t really traveled other than long weekends at the Jersey Shore, our Wish Trip in… Continue reading Trips
The First Year Without Sarah 