I slept until after 5:30 am today, which is great for me. I always seem to sleep longer and better when Dad is visiting. I’m not sure why. Maybe some worry or angst is alleviated that all the people (and animals) I need to keep alive are under one roof. I also talked to Dr.… Continue reading Group Think
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Pool Party
Dad is back at our place for a few days to oversee the renovation of his new apartment at the Place Where He Is Moving To, and we will have lunch there and meet some other residents. Dad is really looking forward to meeting people and getting involved in the groups at the PWHIMT and… Continue reading Pool Party
Magic is the Moonlight
Last night I was brushing my teeth, getting ready for bed, and while I was brushing I studied the decor in our upstairs bathroom. We live in a 1941 colonial with three very tiny upstairs bedrooms and one small upstairs bathroom that I guess you could call Art Deco. It’s got yellow and black original… Continue reading Magic is the Moonlight
Clouds
Sometimes I wonder if I should play the Dead Child Card more and just take a break from responsibility for a while. Just excuse myself from having to wear clean clothes, brush my hair, exercise and eat a balanced diet, because I have a Dead Child, you know. Why would I be able to function… Continue reading Clouds
Holidays
Last night I dreamed that I was teaching a small class of middle schoolers or high schoolers some sort of elective. I hadn’t really prepared a curriculum and was sort of BS-ing my way through the lesson, which consisted of walking around our neighborhood park and pointing out various conifers and their rate of growth.… Continue reading Holidays
Higher Power
Today we may or may not go to a Memorial Day Barbecue put on by Max’s AA group that will be held prior to their meeting. It depends on the weather and how I’m feeling. I guess if I go to the BBQ I’ll probably end up staying for the AA meeting too. I’ve been… Continue reading Higher Power
Wishbone
The Wall Street Journal said today that prison inmates are looking forward to meeting Elizabeth Holmes (the convicted founder of Theranos) and have said “I want to be her friend.” Well, I’m glad that Elizabeth, or Liz as she goes by now (I think), is going to have a support system in prison and that… Continue reading Wishbone
Tootsie Rolls
Yesterday and this morning I’ve been feeling pretty depressed and tearful, and I did quite a lot of crying thinking about missing Sarah. I walked up to our little downtown shopping area at lunchtime yesterday and looked for a bathrobe and a few other things, and just realized I felt very down. I was flipping… Continue reading Tootsie Rolls
Slide Show
HBO Max rebranded itself into Max some time in the last few days and for some reason we can’t get the app to work on our streaming system anymore. We can open it and get a few frames of a show, like a slide show almost, and then a message comes up saying there’s a… Continue reading Slide Show
Assisted Ballet
Sarah lost skills gradually and slowly over time. We didn’t really think about the fact that she couldn’t do some things she used to do, it just was something we accepted. For a couple of years she was able to take little steps while wearing her harness for assisted ballet. Then, she couldn’t do it… Continue reading Assisted Ballet
The First Year Without Sarah 