Yesterday’s event at Sarah’s school turned out to be a lot of fun with relatively few bad moments. I remembered how to drive to the school despite my fears. When we pulled into the parking lot, “Sarah Smile,” the old song by Hall and Oates, was playing on the 70’s station I usually listen to… Continue reading Field Day
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Cincinnati
Today I’m officially on leave from work and we are going over to Sarah’s school for the Field Day named in Sarah’s honor. I’m trying not to stress and get antsy about going there. The last few days I’ve been sort of torturing myself in my mind with the notion that I will no longer… Continue reading Cincinnati
Tante
This weekend was packed with family stuff (my niece’s graduation, day trip to visit Max’s brothers in Philadelphia) and it seemed to go smoothly on all counts. There’s a satisfaction to spending time with family and having it go easily and well and simply enjoying the time together. People who have been in therapy over… Continue reading Tante
Friendly’s
Today is the first of the triumvirate of social events we have going on in the next few days: my niece’s college graduation, then a quick day trip up to Philly tomorrow to see Max’s brothers, and the field day at Sarah’s school on Tuesday. That’s a lot for us. I’m a little wrought up,… Continue reading Friendly’s
Bandana
Yesterday contained a surprise. A few months ago we approached Sarah’s school about arranging some sort of tribute for her there — a buddy bench, or a piece of equipment her classroom needed, or something else that they thought was best. They said they would let us know, and we didn’t hear back, but figured… Continue reading Bandana
Pep Talk
Today seems less fraught with sadness and angst than yesterday, but I’m still feeling down and kind of over-sensitive. Generally, I do not like the term over-sensitive. People are as sensitive as they are and if they feel especially sensitive, that’s life. It’s like the Doctrine of the Eggshell Plaintiff that you learn in your… Continue reading Pep Talk
Ferry Boat
I’m feeling really fried today and I actually did not feel like writing. Tomorrow is the 18th and it will be nine months since Sarah died. I’m not feeling like it’s any easier. I actually feel like I’m more prone to bouts of tears and craziness. I get pumped up and smiley and almost giddy… Continue reading Ferry Boat
Mall About Town
It’s turning into a busy upcoming weekend. On Sunday we will drive up to Philly to visit with Max’s brothers, and probably drive back the same day. Saturday is my niece’s college graduation ceremony here in DC and my brother phoned last night to invite us to come. (They tend to plan things at the… Continue reading Mall About Town
Hat Tip
Yesterday, Mother’s Day, did turn out to be very difficult, with me feeling like I’d been hit from both sides without Mom and Sarah, and I just got into bed and slept for a long time. Max did his best to try to cheer me up and my Dad called as well, but I’m just… Continue reading Hat Tip
Borsht Belt
Today is Mothers Day (Mother’s Day? Mothers’ Day?) and I’m just surfing the wave. Max and I agreed yesterday that flowers and a card will suffice for today. I’m not feeling any sadness about the holiday aspect of the weekend, but I did have a little cry last night when I was putting laundry away,… Continue reading Borsht Belt
The First Year Without Sarah 