I think I’ve officially reached the “Anger” stage of grief. A few months ago I didn’t even seem to know what the whole anger gig during grief was all about, but now — hoo boy — I am spitting nails and taking no prisoners. This business with the Grief Group has really bothered me and… Continue reading Person First
Tag: grief
Touching Base
I really haven’t had a lot of time lately to feed my TV addiction. Between Dad’s visit and the fact that I’m working on a major piece of writing for work, I’ve barely squeezed in an episode or two of The Americans. In one scene I did watch last night, Gabriel, the “handler” of the… Continue reading Touching Base
Mindset
Yesterday was kind of a shit show. When I got up from my midday nap, Max told me that the leader of our Grief Group had called, wanting to know about my “mindset” about continuing with the group. I was a little baffled. There was an awkward scene at the last meeting, which was the… Continue reading Mindset
Managing Partner
Back when I first graduated from law school I worked for a DC law firm for a couple of years. It was not a positive experience. I had spent a summer working for the firm in another city and received an offer, and then I asked to come to DC to work. My request was… Continue reading Managing Partner
Stress Eating
There was a very triggering post this morning on my local moms discussion board about weight, overweight, and what to do to “control” an overweight daughter. It seems the mom in question visited her daughter at college and saw that she had gained a lot of weight. The mom was “repulsed” (her words). The daughter… Continue reading Stress Eating
Life Span
I realized this morning that we are right on the cusp of my first Mother’s Day since Sarah died. Part of me thinks it will be a sad day but part of me is Zen about it. We never participated in the Mother’s Day Brunch industrial complex due to our family’s eating habits and Sarah’s… Continue reading Life Span
Just in Case
Max and I are watching a new show, “Godfather of Harlem.” We like it a lot, and I especially like the song that plays at the beginning over the credits sequence, Just in Case by Swiss Beatz, Rick Ross, and DMX. The chorus makes me cry a bit sometimes. It goes: Open up my window… Continue reading Just in Case
Hearts
My dad has returned to NYC for now, but will be moving to the area to an independent living facility about 20 minutes from here sometime late this summer. I’m pleased that he will be close by and that he made this decision. But it’s hard not to feel guilty about the prospect of a… Continue reading Hearts
Legacies
I talk a lot about my family of origin, which is half of Sarah, but I’ve hardly touched on Max’s family background at all. Max’s parents were really a whole generation older than my parents. His dad Leonard was born in 1918, and Max’s grandfather died from the Spanish Flu before Max’s dad was born.… Continue reading Legacies
Graduate School
My Dad has been visiting us this weekend to look at a potential independent living situation near here. (I was calling his relocating ‘going to college’ a few posts ago but that seemed a bit twee and I’m over that). He seems pretty serious about the potential move but not yet dealing with the logistics… Continue reading Graduate School
The First Year Without Sarah 