There’s a way I have of looking at my life story where I seem to give myself a kind of downer presentation as the Bad Luck Kid. That I’m always kind of unlucky. That if bad things happen, that if someone got the goose egg, it was me. This way of ruminating on my life ends up… Continue reading Lucky
Tag: special needs mom
Life Expectancy
Yesterday I was thinking about a special needs kid who Sarah rode the Camp JCC bus with, and the thought flashed through my mind that this girl would have to ride alone now. Then I remembered that she had died a few months before Sarah. Like Sarah she died in her sleep. This led me… Continue reading Life Expectancy
Picking
Although my mood has been pretty good lately, I’ve been struggling with picking at my face. This is a problem I’ve had from time to time and it sneaks up on me and gets away from me. It’s really a bad cycle because having little sores and scabs on your face (gross, I know) contributes… Continue reading Picking
Field Day
Yesterday’s event at Sarah’s school turned out to be a lot of fun with relatively few bad moments. I remembered how to drive to the school despite my fears. When we pulled into the parking lot, “Sarah Smile,” the old song by Hall and Oates, was playing on the 70’s station I usually listen to… Continue reading Field Day
Bandana
Yesterday contained a surprise. A few months ago we approached Sarah’s school about arranging some sort of tribute for her there — a buddy bench, or a piece of equipment her classroom needed, or something else that they thought was best. They said they would let us know, and we didn’t hear back, but figured… Continue reading Bandana
Mall About Town
It’s turning into a busy upcoming weekend. On Sunday we will drive up to Philly to visit with Max’s brothers, and probably drive back the same day. Saturday is my niece’s college graduation ceremony here in DC and my brother phoned last night to invite us to come. (They tend to plan things at the… Continue reading Mall About Town
Borsht Belt
Today is Mothers Day (Mother’s Day? Mothers’ Day?) and I’m just surfing the wave. Max and I agreed yesterday that flowers and a card will suffice for today. I’m not feeling any sadness about the holiday aspect of the weekend, but I did have a little cry last night when I was putting laundry away,… Continue reading Borsht Belt
Ethan
Next week we are going up to Philadelphia to Max’s family home where two of his older brothers still live because his oldest brother, Jeff, is coming in from Michigan for a visit. I think I have mentioned before that Jeff is 21 years older than Max and was leaving home for graduate school when… Continue reading Ethan
Grass Experience
For many years our aross-the-back-fence neighbors were an older retired couple called Margaret and Frank. They were nice for the most part except that Margaret was obsessed with gardening and weeding her back yard and with the possibility of contamination from weeds or “trash trees” in our yard. We are not gardeners but we do… Continue reading Grass Experience
Freecycling
Yesterday when Polly the Beagle and I were out for our morning walk, I saw that a neighbor was freecycling a little blue chair for a child. For a moment or two I thought something like “Good back support, nice deep tush, and armrests. Sarah could do well sitting up in that.” Which was silly… Continue reading Freecycling
The First Year Without Sarah 