I still get a bit of a shock and a disappointment when I look at the photos on my iPhone and realize there are no new photos of Sarah. There are photos of the trips Max and I have taken since Sarah died, but I’m not a big photographer. Most of the photos on my phone were… Continue reading Multiverse
Tag: sudden death
Bright-siding
I should pay attention to ways I am doing better lately and try to remember that I’m actually improving. Although I still cry every day, and think about Sarah all the time, and wonder why the world doesn’t think about her too, I am able to do some of the things again that I used to… Continue reading Bright-siding
Screen Shot
For several months I really felt I had nothing to offer my readers and I was pretty determined to stop writing permanently. A couple of days ago a little voice in my head made me decide to go back. Why? I’m not sure. At odd moments, I smell the most intense floral scent. It is an intense scent, like… Continue reading Screen Shot
Memorabilia
This morning I was cruising around Facebook and a friend had posted about her young daughter’s choice of Halloween costume. This is another girl named Hannah (it’s a popular name). My Facebook Friend said something like “Hannah passed on the princess costume and chose the Jedi costume instead” and there was a cute picture of… Continue reading Memorabilia
Picking
Although my mood has been pretty good lately, I’ve been struggling with picking at my face. This is a problem I’ve had from time to time and it sneaks up on me and gets away from me. It’s really a bad cycle because having little sores and scabs on your face (gross, I know) contributes… Continue reading Picking
Cancer
Max and I have start re-watching “Breaking Bad.” We are on the first season where Walter has cancer and is desperate to try to find a way to pay for treatment and also leave his family financially secure if he dies. As we watched scenes of Walter in chemo and radiation clinics, getting his doses… Continue reading Cancer
Unwed Mother
This week I was thinking about when Max and I were going together, back before Sarah was born, and the things we used to do together. We went to estate sales and book sales. We went to festivals and film festivals and to the movies, often dashing off at the last minute. We went out… Continue reading Unwed Mother
Holidays
Last night I dreamed that I was teaching a small class of middle schoolers or high schoolers some sort of elective. I hadn’t really prepared a curriculum and was sort of BS-ing my way through the lesson, which consisted of walking around our neighborhood park and pointing out various conifers and their rate of growth.… Continue reading Holidays
Higher Power
Today we may or may not go to a Memorial Day Barbecue put on by Max’s AA group that will be held prior to their meeting. It depends on the weather and how I’m feeling. I guess if I go to the BBQ I’ll probably end up staying for the AA meeting too. I’ve been… Continue reading Higher Power
Wishbone
The Wall Street Journal said today that prison inmates are looking forward to meeting Elizabeth Holmes (the convicted founder of Theranos) and have said “I want to be her friend.” Well, I’m glad that Elizabeth, or Liz as she goes by now (I think), is going to have a support system in prison and that… Continue reading Wishbone
The First Year Without Sarah 