Destiny is all, or so Uhtred from The Last Kingdom would have us believe. I’m not sure I agree, but when I look at the eighteen months, roughly, leading up to Sarah’s death, I see a series of guideposts. There was me getting back in touch with my law school boyfriend, who had lost a… Continue reading Guideposts
Tag: sudden death
Writing Bug
Sarah loved to write stories (and read them) on a website called Tar Heel Shared Reader that supported AAC access and offered eye gaze interface with her speech device for writing. She wrote about two or three dozen books on there with help from her tutor. She also wrote books on Google Slides with her… Continue reading Writing Bug
Touching Base
I really haven’t had a lot of time lately to feed my TV addiction. Between Dad’s visit and the fact that I’m working on a major piece of writing for work, I’ve barely squeezed in an episode or two of The Americans. In one scene I did watch last night, Gabriel, the “handler” of the… Continue reading Touching Base
Managing Partner
Back when I first graduated from law school I worked for a DC law firm for a couple of years. It was not a positive experience. I had spent a summer working for the firm in another city and received an offer, and then I asked to come to DC to work. My request was… Continue reading Managing Partner
Stress Eating
There was a very triggering post this morning on my local moms discussion board about weight, overweight, and what to do to “control” an overweight daughter. It seems the mom in question visited her daughter at college and saw that she had gained a lot of weight. The mom was “repulsed” (her words). The daughter… Continue reading Stress Eating
Life Span
I realized this morning that we are right on the cusp of my first Mother’s Day since Sarah died. Part of me thinks it will be a sad day but part of me is Zen about it. We never participated in the Mother’s Day Brunch industrial complex due to our family’s eating habits and Sarah’s… Continue reading Life Span
Just in Case
Max and I are watching a new show, “Godfather of Harlem.” We like it a lot, and I especially like the song that plays at the beginning over the credits sequence, Just in Case by Swiss Beatz, Rick Ross, and DMX. The chorus makes me cry a bit sometimes. It goes: Open up my window… Continue reading Just in Case
Hearts
My dad has returned to NYC for now, but will be moving to the area to an independent living facility about 20 minutes from here sometime late this summer. I’m pleased that he will be close by and that he made this decision. But it’s hard not to feel guilty about the prospect of a… Continue reading Hearts
Legacies
I talk a lot about my family of origin, which is half of Sarah, but I’ve hardly touched on Max’s family background at all. Max’s parents were really a whole generation older than my parents. His dad Leonard was born in 1918, and Max’s grandfather died from the Spanish Flu before Max’s dad was born.… Continue reading Legacies
Trailhead
The park where I often walk Polly the Beagle (and where Sarah’s planned memorial bench will go) has a very large open area of playing fields and swing sets and a nice big path that takes you all the way around the park through pines and other trees. There’s also a more wooded area of… Continue reading Trailhead
The First Year Without Sarah 